I have been house-sitting for some super awesome and generous folks over the past couple of months. Big shout out to ya’ll! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
The other day I was cleaning the stove top (no intense cleaning here!) just a wee wipe! And I guess I accidentally turned the oven light on. After realizing this, I tried to turn it off. Simple thing, huh? Well, I couldn’t figure out how to turn it off (I was also in such a rush to leave and was feeling impatient to finish this task – remember this is not my stove!) So I left that day with the light on (the stove was not on – I promise!)
I come back that night and am like, “ok, I need to turn this off before I go to bed.” Again, I was super impatient and annoyed that I couldn’t turn the switch off instantly. I was looking for a huge button clearly stating, “press this to turn the oven light off!” Argh! I obviously had turned it on while cleaning, but just couldn’t find a way to turn it off. You know how you get when you need (or feel you need) to move on to the next thing? Well, this was holding me back from my next delicious task, which was sleep, and I was feeling rushed…
So, I take a deep breath and start scanning the stovetop for this button. The thing is my eyes kept gravitating to the same places: to the main knobs front and center, on the side of the oven, and then in the actual oven (although I hadn’t touched it on the inside.)
Finally, I see it! It was “hidden” in the upper left-hand corner! Ok, fine, it was right in front of me! Ta-da!
I immediately saw how this lesson was connected to me and my life. Recently, I had been repeatedly looking in the same places to find “answers” or “an answer” only to come up with…nothing! I was attempting to find these “answers” without much thought to my long-term dreams and life-fulfillment. I was also approaching it without the love and patience needed for myself to get to these answers.
It was only when I took a deep breath (starting house-sitting) and slowly scanned the oven (did not rush into a job just for the sake of taking a job) was I able to find the “oven light” button (to really think about what I wanted and needed.) I always knew the answer, but I didn’t have the time and space to let the opportunity root itself.
Pretty sweet, huh?
I was looking for a big giant sign saying, “Jess, go this way” or “Jess, turn here!!”
In some ways, I was looking for approval and answers again from external sources instead of looking inward where there was a plethora of dreams to tap into!! Wow!!!!!
I can really write more and dig deeper on this, but I will leave it there.
Quickly though, I just want to say that everything that I am doing right now in my life are things that I have always wanted since I was a wee lassy, but denied myself because of insecurities. No longer. I encourage you to wake and realize your potential. You have the answers in you.
Love, love, love,